Meaning in my very own shower thoughts and other stuff

Many scientist and philosophers have been looking for and discussing the meaning of life and i dont wanna get into that too much but they havent found a real objective solution to the question. Obviously it has to be kind of subjective or maybe not. I guess everyone has to find a reason to live for themselves. Its nothing new but thats what ive been thinking about lately. Thats what im on about: I havent really found my target in my life yet. I dont know what to strive for. Is it happiness? Or is it the happiness of others? I dont want to live a stressful and troubled life in which i have to count every penny. Im still too young to understand and im still having to rely on my parents at the moment but im trying to starting to wrapping my head around it the more independend i get. My parents always tell me i shouldnt think about that too much and just live my life while im still young. But in my opinion, if you wanna become successful you got to keep in mind the goal and know what youre doing it for. And that “what im doing it for”, the actual motive is what i still havent figured out. I guess I will have to give it a bit more time and then the motive will become clearer. Im starting to repeat myself. I need alot more practise in writing…