My journal in Do you ever feel like...

Do you ever feel like your life is too much for you? Like you can’t handle anything that’s in it? All the decisions you’ve ever made fighting together in your head, trying to make you reconsider everything you thought you wanted … Like a part of your brain believes that this life you’re living doesn’t belong to you … ? That’s how I feel everyday since I’m about 8 years old. I just kept doing/being whatever other people wanted me to do/be, just to ‘wake up’ to this weird version of an adult that really doesn’t know who she is… and what the f$;& she is doing. Trying to figure out all of this, one step at a time while writing everything I can think of, to help me do ‘recaps’ of my feelings and hopefully this will get me somewhere where I can see clearer!