So in the last week, I have made some big mistakes, but honestly, right now I am NOT capable of controlling myself. It’s still my fault though and there is (almost) only bad excuses. I have gotten hurt and I’ve hurt two guys. Sometimes my emotions just come over me like a wildfire and I feel like I can do nothing but follow them. It’s ok though that’s life. Getting hurt, making new memories and hopefully, learning.
The only thing I’m fearful of is that my buried self-hatred well pop up again even though I know it won’t stay for long. I will never allow it to. But right now I can feel my self-loathing pressing against my thoughts waiting for a chance to slip in.
However, don’t worry I’ll be okay. Better than okay.
And if anyone is interested in what happened leave a comment
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