What am I doing in My thoughts, my story, my recovery.

I love him. I always give in, I have no will power. I’ve been seeing him again, he’s acting so different and sweet. We’ve been seeing each other often… and he’s been affectionate to me, saying he’s thinking he wants to get back together? ..he told me the other night that he thinks he would marry me… I don’t get it. I had a little pregnancy scare and before I took the test he said “is it weird that I’m kind of excited?”.. I swear he wants me to get pregnant so that he’s forced to be with me. He said if I was then he would want to get married.. maybe he’s confused. I’m clueless. I don’t know what he wants or what we are doing. My family hates him because they think he was involved in that past trauma I’ve mentioned before… but he wouldn’t do that, he wouldn’t. I don’t believe it. I hate it because I know I’m so gullible and naive, I always have my head in the clouds .. I actually trust and believe him. I can tell that he cares about me… I think. My problem is that I can’t give up on people, I won’t give up on someone I love and I want him to know that no matter what I will always love him and be there for him like no one else has. He deserves someone to love him like that. I really hope he can figure things out for himself and me and him can be together.