So far I’m mostly on schedule; I’m about 2-3 Free Code Camp assignments behind where I should be (~10 hours) and a full sewing day behind.
FCC was due to a stupid mistake. I forgot that I actually hadn’t quite completed the Bonfire projects in December; I still had one left. For some reason I thought it was fine to leave this off the calendar and ‘squeeze it in’. Bonfire projects are much bigger than the algorithm challenges and it took me an entire dedicated Free Code Camp day to do it - so by my calendar, a ‘wasted day’ that I had to move the ‘FCC challenges 1 and 2’ post-it off and fit into the rest of February. I tore it in half and split it over Sundays, my one day off. I didn’t catch the Bonfire mistake earlier because in January I was fixing an old challenge that needed to be completely re-done.
For sewing, I’m not really sure what happened. My guess is my period - it was a strong one this month and my energy level dropped to about 2/10 for two days. That’s not an excuse, though - it happens every month and I can’t be wiped out for two days of every month. I should have done better. I did take iron and ibuprofen and try to deal, but it wasn’t enough. My hands felt like lobster claws and everything seemed so confusing. I worked diligently but just couldn’t do the simple tasks I’d done 1000 times before in the time allotted. Now, on my calendar for today I’m looking at ‘Finish Barb Hermione Yule Ball,’ and ‘Pattern and cut Caroyln Edwardian,’ which is just not possible in one day. Where does this one-sewing-day-behind post-it go? Cut it in half and put it on Sunday with the FCC catch-up, and now my days off are completely gone? Canceling two weeks of D&D so I can have my Tuesdays back? (I keep D&D despite my strict schedule because it’s really good for my story-brain.) Counting on magically being able to do double work on two days? I feel like I already work nonstop every day.
I was supposed to do a nature walk today with a Meet-Up group but we’re in the middle of a blizzard so I’ll have to pass on that. I’ll have to find another event. The Meet-up means losing a Sunday of rest, too, as I doubt I’ll find meeting up with a bunch of strangers to be restful at all.
Thankfully I have 3 Sundays left, so if I give them all up, I should be able to do Meet-up, FCC challenges, and an extra day of Carolyn Edwardian. So…no days off this month for me, I guess. I deserve it because of my failures :(
It’s better than strep throat and Padme by a long shot, though!
Edit: After thinking about this in the shower, I remembered that my mistake last month was putting my sewing income above my yearly goals in priority. Sewing is not on the ‘Hermione Granger This Shit’ plan at all - it’s just my income. So, if something needs to give, it needs to be sewing. I’m going to push all of my yearly sewing post-its two days down for the entire year to give myself days to catch up on The Plan and realistically reach my Feb goals. I give clients vague outlines like ‘mid-March starting date’ so it’s fine to do this. It’s like losing $200 but that will have to be the price I pay for this and future mistakes. Hah! Problem solved! See, journal writing helps. /end edit
I’m trying to focus on how much I’m accomplishing - my little story is coming to life, I’m learning more about coding which will illuminate doors in the dim hallway of my non-career, I’m paying down debt left and right with my sewing income. All of this effort is worth it. I’m old. Putting little things off every day is wasting years of my life. I have to make it happen this year. Now. Not later. Keep going.
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