Medical School = Dream 5/3/2003
I haven't gone out since April 12, which was my sorority formal. I simply haven't had the chance because I've been studying like a maniac for finals. Sometimes I wonder if it's even worth it. On my last biology test I got an 84/150. It was the average for the class, so it was curved up to a C+, but still...It ruined my A- biology average. I was hoping to get a 3.6 this semester, but that's shot.
My Comparative World Literature class is the dumbest class I've ever taken. We're reading about stream-of-conscious authors...basically it's a bunch of crappy writers who type down whatever goes through their head and we're supposed to critique it. Plus, the TA teaching the class is a hippie tree-hugging jack-ass. Apparently he doesn't believe in giving A's. The midterm paper was a bitch. He allowed us to give him a rough draft, which he graded, and we were allowed to recorrect and then hand it back in. He gave me the same grade, a C+, that he gave me on the rough draft. Some people had it worse than me though...One girl got a B+ on the rough draft and then corrected the paper and got a C+. Another girl got a C+ and then got a D. He's just a bastard with grades and it's really pissing me off because it's a 100 level class. the 8:30 section my friend is in is supposedly mad easy. I shoukd've switched in but because it was so early I was worried I wouldn't be able to make it to class at 8:30 three days a week. So now, even though I always go to his office hours and to the Writing Center, I'll be lucky if I pull a B in that class.
Biology is just a bitch in general. It's science, and science isn't based on what you know, it's based on a damn curve. If 500+ stidents are getting a 84/150 then obviously something is wrong....
Psychology isn't hard, but it's a lot of reading and the tests focus on small details. As of now I have an 88.6, so if I do well on the final I might get an A-.
My art professor this semester is amazing. I might pull an A which I'm very excited about.
But still, after this entire's semester worth of studying and doing work that only gives me a 3.3 or a 3.4 which will definitely not get me into medical school. I've decided to give up on medical school. Having ambition is great but I need to be realistic with the goals I set for myself. Medical schools don't care about the majority of students working their asses off for that B...they want the few students who managed to get A's. I obviously can't make the cut. By continuing to believe that I have a chance at medical school is basically setting myself up to fail. I've decided to go another route and apply to mostly PA schools, one or two graduate schools, and possibly some jobs during my senior year. I'm definitely not happy with the decision but at least I know I have a shot at getting into PA school. The only good thing is that PA's, especially in the field of psychiatry since there's so few of them, are well paid. Also I'll only have to worry about the GRE's instead of both the MCAT's and the GRE's.
I'm just pissed because some people like John get good grades so easily. I know I shouldn't compare myself to other people , but it really sucks that I have the lowest grades and the lowest SAT scores in my entire family and I work so hard. Rebecca and John go out practically every weekend and still manage to succeed, while I haven't gone out for three weeks and I'm barely managing to eek out a B+ average. I just feel stupid a lot of the time and it's really getting to me. I need to go home.
Until my next ramble
Artist
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