Sinking. in Chapter 2 : The Elle Era

I tried and we failed, we ended up rowing about it. I’m sat right now crying so hard so quiet that it’s making me heave and retch. I’m fed up of this. I wish I didn’t love her. I wish I had the guts to do something stupid and end it all but I don’t because I can’t even do that fucking right because I’m such a schmuck. I’ve had enough and I can’t even disappear anymore. I can’t keep doing this. I shouldn’t have to. I’ve done nothing wrong for fucks sakes.