Wasting Away!!! in The Fight Ahead

I showed up for work today, even though lately it’s been a struggle too. I have a job in which most in my area consider to be the holy grail of the workforce. I work at a steel mill, it’s hot, nasty, greasy, gassy and just down right miserable at times. Since being out here I’ve cracked 2 ribs in my back from falling down stairs covered in grease, torn my right ligament in my arm, accidentally hit a coworker with a hammer as my gloves were covered in grease and it just literally flew out like a slippery banana peel. Then there was a time when my crane locked up and came to a screeching halt causing me to bang the shit out of my knee, I was walking between blast furnace platforms when my fellow coworker and myself were gassed with 1000+PPM of carbon dioxide. I guess the point I’m trying to make is everyone wants this job and at times it’s good but the personal trade off is starting to wear me down physically and emotionally. The pay is exceptional for the area and the benefits are amazing but I spent 12-16 hours a day of my life here, often times forced to work my days off. I breath in gasses, I’ve been burnt by popping steel, I’m not sure this is where I see myself for the rest of my life. I’ve previously discussed going back to school and that causes me to feel incased in dread as well. Financially that’s a hell of a lot of money. I just feel smothered from the most important aspects of my life and I don’t know how to remove the cloak! I wish I was wasting away in a beach somewhere with amazing friends and fruity drinks in my hand but the reality is even that costs too damn much money! Help.... I scream in my head… Help… what do I do now?. I don’t want this shithole to be my life anymore but I can’t escape it either!