So its currently 5am and here I am, laying in bed, not able to sleep. Working night shift, it’s hard to have a normal sleep/wake schedule, so I find myself here. I haven’t journaled my life in years, and I always think how cool it would be to write down my daily thoughts and little details of the day to look back at years from now.
Tomorrow (or should I say today) I have to pickup my car from the shop. With it being god awfully cold and 10 degrees outside, my car conveniently decided to give my problems. It’s gonna cost $300 or more to fix, which is another bill to stress about. My mom offered to help, but I feel bad about taking money from her.
I’m moving out in February with J. We put our security deposit down as well as our first months rent so it’s feeling pretty real now. I honestly don’t know how this is all gonna turn out. I’m excited yet can’t help feeling a little saddened by it all. I feel like once I move out, there’s no turning back. I’m leaving my dad at home and taking daisy with me. Me and my dad have had many issues in the past and we don’t get along a lot of the times. Lately, we’ve been on good terms and I feel guilty leaving him.
I’m 23 years old now. Life is moving pretty quickly these days and it’s really catching up to me. I feel like it’s time to move out with J and really live life to the fullest. I need to leave the comfort of my home and start living for myself without worrying about others all the time.
We’re going furniture shopping this week. I’ll see how this goes.
-A
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