Growing Away from Who I Was in Get Out of My Head

So, this weekend was full of finals, family, and looking through old pictures. Some people see old pictures and think of how ridiculous they looked. All I saw was a sweet kid/teenager/young adult that was full of life, silly, and always had a huge toothy grin. I miss that girl. Today’s pictures are full of tight lipped smiles in forced pictures. Why did I stop showing that beautiful smile? I’m still happily married and love my husband and family so much. What broke me? How do I start the process of getting back to that person that my husband fell in love with? The me I was in love with?