I just got done cleaning my apartment. Actually I’m not done, I’m just taking a break. I reorganized under my bathroom sick and bagged up a bunch of Christmas gifts. It feels like a lot less this year because I didn’t have to make up gifts for a boyfriend and his family. Made Christmas soo much cheaper lol
Work has it’s bullshit lately. I had to write someone up for being lazy, and then someone called in for their midshift, and I had plans to go on a date with Alex (which never ended up happening, because he’s apparently sick like everyone is right now) so that made me mad.
I leave and then get a phone call, 2 of my employees kind of got into it in front of some customers. lovely. this is my life and what I get to deal with. I just gotta breathe. the trash will take itself out, it always does, even if I gotta give it a little push. I have to fire two people tomorrow and I’m sure two more will follow after that. I have a feeling.
Alex texted me saying he was sick. I tried to hit up Austin and he’s busy with his life of running around and being sexy as fuck. I kind of want male attention tonight but I also kind of want to not have ANY human contact whatsoever and to just sit here and smoke alone and on and off clean my apartment.
I notice I keep avoiding my laundry though. Ughh. I hate laundry. I keep putting it off, which makes it that much worse. This is life. This is adulting.
I signed up for a health insurance plan. My very own. I am now a full adult. FML.
I put makeup on and everything because I planned on meeting this dude but I kinda don’t want to meet anyone new. I feel like I have the person I need in my life. I don’t know who it is but something tells me I’m “satisfied”. Maybe I’m just tired of it. Idk. Maybe its just a weird annoying day for me and I hate humanity. I’m gonna go with that. Because I’m still horny as a muthafucka.
I derailed on my diet hardcore. And Bing-eating begat regain, which begat bloating and depression.
I’m trying to get my life together piece by piece. Atleast I’m financially stable now. Ish.
I miss having someone to cuddle with at times like this.
I found out my mom is having a lot more health issues than originally thought. So that’s on my mind and stressin me out.
I might start to read this book tonight called “beasts of extraordinary circumstance”
or start a new choker necklace.
or sit here depressed.
Probably that.
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