Only Human in Every day scata

Cold Showers

7:20 am

Well, surprisingly, my thighs don’t hurt like I expected them to. I think the little bit of pain I have in my right thigh is due to the extreme pain of the SI joint. If I didn’t need money, I would be calling in and laying in bed all day, it’s just that bad. But I’ll work through it like I usually do… or at least try to.

I forgot to stop at the store for my milk and other stuff yesterday. I’d add Kratom to a protein shake, but that’s out because of my bad memory. smh I annoy myself. Maybe if I just take straight up aspirin it will help with the pain.

I just don’t know anymore.

I went into a chronic back pain group that I belong to on fb to ask if anyone has had surgery to stabilize the SI joint, and two people answered that it helped with the pain. Maybe if I win the lotto I can have surgery done. ::sigh::

13 degrees this morning. Frosty outside. I should take a picture just for pictures sake, but I’m kind of waiting for the sun to shine a little brighter so I can really catch the frost. Right now it looks like a black and white picture.

I’ve run out of things to say this morning. I’ll be back.

1024 am

I ended up canceling on the Alpenhorn today. I can barely walk. Nothing has worked for the pain (not that I have anything) and I was crying hard before I laid down for a little bit.

That’s what sucks about this. I can’t sit, stand, walk, or lay down for more than 15 minutes at a time. It makes for a long day and night.

I think I’m more upset about losing out on a days pay than anything else. I hate calling in. I feel like I’m a disappointment to not only the people I work for, but to myself, also. I feel like I should be tougher than this.

4:53 pm

Sit, stand, lay is the story of the day.

See ya.