Repairing the past in Inner demons

So… this is something new I am trying.. I wanted to find a place where I can talk out issues that I can’t “talk” out. If you ask the people who surround me what kind of person they think I am, they will give you the generic response. They will tell you that I am a very outgoing, funny, loyal and smart.. but none of them know the inner demons I deal with everyday. Nobody knows what I went through growing up. Watching my family fall apart and helping each one individually to build themselves up only to become the most broken on the inside. I was the smile that hid the pain and I was so used to that.. here I am, almost 15 years later trying to find a way to repair the pain of my past for the sake of my future.