My mind is going 1000 mph in Just me living life by the day

I’m not sure how to keep up with everything thing I think about. I feel like I’m always doing something I’m always thinking about what’s next. My cousin tells me I look stressed. I feel stressed. I’m okay though. I’m working on getting out of the corporate world. It’s taking me some time to get the discipline to work on a co pansy I’m paying monthly bills for. I’m being lazy.. it could be that I’m depressed. It could be that I’m not out to my parents and one of my brothers and his wife. I feel like I don’t want to get to my 29 birthday in April with out being out to my family. I’m stressed out about that. My boyfriend, whom I love very much is struggling to find a better job. I feel like I’m being spread thin financially. I’m managing though. My mother just told me a few days ago, “mijo, someone’s gotta tell you and I think since I’m your mother I should tell you. You’re getting fat. I’m sorry, but you are getting fat. You should go to the gym…”. That’s how that went. I’m okay with what she said. I know I’ve gained a few or 20lbs in the last 5 or so months. I’ve been stressed. Work is stressful. Being spread financially thin because of me and my choices is stressful. ( I feel like I want to blame someone else about my problems but I will resist because this is taking ownership aaaaaahh!) I am living in my own apartment for the first time. Well, I’m living with my first boyfriend ever too. I feel like this is all for today.. he’s about to walk in. :)