I should clarify what I wrote about yesterday. I don’t actually mean that Steve McQueen set out to get me drunk so he could get me in bed. I don’t think that at all, and I shouldn’t have written the entry in such a way that it sounded accusatory.
I agree with some noters in that he likes to PARTY. As do I!
Yeah, the guy could have a drinking issue, but I don’t think he does. I think what he has is similar to what I have - perhaps a tenseness issue? He does seem a little…shy…nervous, even. It seems to take us both a couple of glasses of wine or whatever to loosen up and have a comfortable time together.
I feel like I’ve put some expectations around this (ya think??!) and, as always, I’m scared that I’m going to blow it somehow. I don’t like feeling this way and I wish I could just relax, but that’s just not how I am. I wonder if he’s the same way?
Regardless, I dig him. I want to date him. I’m not yet sure I want him to be in a relationship with him, and I don’t know how he feels either. But again, I’m glad we have that…hurdle…out of the way, you know? Now maybe we can focus a little better? Heh.
That said, I got an invitation to a Christmas party at my CEO’s house. It’s for the Leadership Council members and their guests only. This is a pretty big/important one, and I’m debating whether or not to ask SMcQ or if it will feel like too much pressure to him. My guess is that he will already have something going on, what with his 3 kids probably all on break from school/college by that time…still, it would be wonderful to have someone to take to this event.
He would also get to see and meet all of the characters that I talk about when I tell him my work stories. I think it would be interesting to get his take on all of that as he’s always asking about what’s going on at work.
But of course, I’m jumping the gun here.
And of course, nada from the Tree. Not that I would have gone out with him as my focus is elsewhere, but…WHY did he get back in touch in the first place, telling me that he wanted to give it another go only to disappear…AGAIN?
OK. Back to the grind. Lots to do before my meeting with Boss this afternoon. Wish me luck.
xox,
GS
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