Well, dinner last night was pretty anticlimactic, so I’ll just come out and tell you…
The Bulldog.
[ducking for cover]
I don’t know, you guys. I wanted to have dinner with him just to talk about stuff and see how his trip was, and again, there are no feelings there except for feelings of friendship and curiosity.
And I guess, deep down, a feeling of hurt because he cut me so swiftly out of his life.
But as he explained, that was my own fault because I “dumped” him in a public place and I realize that he was actually hurt.
The bottom line, I guess, is that we didn’t communicate that well back then. I didn’t clearly express my expectations because I really didn’t have any to begin with - besides wanting someone to help me get over Sexy Pants. I didn’t know that I’d fall in love with the guy, and I don’t think he knew it either.
So, again. No hard feelings, I guess. No feelings at all, really. Except he’s still an odd creature and that’s his charm AND our undoing. It’s fine. It’s all good. He’s doing fine. So am I.
Next topic: Yesterday’s Outing with My Team
Like I said yesterday, it is always good to get out of the office and we had a good and productive trip. Came back to the office revived and inspired.
Then Boss tells me that he wants to cut my recommendation for salary increases because he’s trying to manage the salary budget and he wants to give someone else a bigger increase. Simple math tells me he’s going to cut out a percentage of my increase as well, and that’s fine because I’m almost out of here (and this will be one of the straws…), but because he took away two key players on my team last year, I feel like Negative C. and Easy E. have actually stepped up to the plate in a pretty big way since filling those two empty roles has taken well over 60% of my own time and they’ve had to fill in the gaps.
So yeah.
He sent me this email, giving me the math, and in reality, it’s not really cutting too much out in the grand scheme of things (from a $$$ perspective), but fuck. You take away over a third of my team AND you cut their increase? Then YOU can explain it to them, Boss. I emailed him back, explaining that I thought morale would be an even bigger issue on top of already managing a difficult team. He said, sure…I see your point. It won’t change anything.
So.
I’m looking forward to tonight and my dinner with a former colleague. I’m going to brooch the potential consulting gig, but I also think I may seriously consider a full time gig at her company considering she’s considering a design director AND a director of product development (I could fill both roles).
So I will keep an open mind, but this thing looks more attractive than ever now.
And then, I’m super excited about my Saturday coffee meeting with the marketing/ad agency CEO. Still not sure what to bring to the table, so to speak. But I do think I need to bring some props of some sort and have them up my sleeve.
This is going to get interesting!
[Funny sidebar: the Bulldog said it would get interesting as well - he says I’m going to have a SPECTACULAR 2018, and it’s going to start in October! Remember, the BD is totally into astrology]
Anyway, tonight I get to have a glass of wine - it’s so funny how this plan gets me so excited for the teeniest tiniest thing…and how I used to never even think about that teeny tiny thing.
I also notice big time when I’m not getting enough sleep. Even when I’m not drinking and I don’t get enough sleep, I feel kind of hung over. Interesting, eh?
So yes, excited for wine; excited for the discussion; excited for newness!
xox,
GS
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