Where are you supposed to let feelings out? in Random thoughts

This is it? This is what you’re supposed to do? Or pay a therapist? So, either write them in the online diary where nobody will ever care to read, or take note of them, or pay someone to care. Because the fact is, no one honestly cares how you feel. No one cares about your “comments” on social media. I feel like a speck. So, why am I so depressed? At least the bad days are fewer and farther apart these days. Is it the meds? I don’t think that I’ll ever know.
I wish that I could get a handle on me emotions. I think it’s causing me to not be able to loose the weight. I would bet money on that being the reason why. That and my stomach just hurts all the damn time. Kind of hard to work out when you feel like your entire G.I. system is going to fall out of your ass. Homer, do you have to be so graphic?
I don’t want this pent up anger any more. It consumes my life. I’m wasting so much time being sad. I feel like I’m missing out on some really cool shit just because I would rather be in my bed than anywhere else in the world. (My pillows really get me.) Take today for instance. What have I gotten done so far. Not shit. It’s fucking 12:15 p.m. and I ain’t done shit. Why because my stomach is stupid. So sick of this.