Social and Not-So-Social Media in These Foolish Things

I’m so behind on reading everyone’s PB! Sorry about that. It’s hard to put in the time to write everything down AND then go read - especially when you’re trying to cut down on social media in your lifestyle challenge. Here’s a point to ponder: is PB social media? I mean, I guess it is, right? It’s like blogging, right? But are blogs even considered social media? Hm.

Two days in, and the Whole Life Challenge is going well. It’s probably a fluke (and I know it is) but the scale shows that I’m down 4 lbs already from when I weighed myself last week and discovered that I was ½ lb. from gaining everything back from the first time I did this challenge. I don’t care, I’ll take it.

I’d already kept some of the healthy habits from the last time, so this time around the challenge doesn’t feel as difficult, but I do know that it gets a little painful when there are a lot of things going on and you want to have several glasses of wine or whatever during the week. I’m only allowed ONE drink per week, and if I succeed on most of the challenge for the week, I get a bonus drink, so that makes it two glasses per week.

And the drinking is not even the hardest part of the challenge! It’s interesting, but what I fid the MOST difficult is this thing that they call Mobility, which is really 10 minutes of mindful stretching and breathing. One would think that this is the thing I should enjoy and do the most, but it’s a CHALLENGE for me to sit down and do 10 minutes of anything mindful lately. I blame social media!

Anyway, I’m excited about the challenge and the scale budging really, really helps - even if it’s just water weight.

Speaking of dinner, I have a date with Steve McQueen on Thursday! I’m actually a little bummed that I got this date by prodding ever so gently. I guess I’ve been feeling ballsy lately. In addition to my communications with the Bulldog (more on that later), and my meeting suggestion with AA (which never happened - there was no “next time”), I finally reached out to SMcQ to see if he’d disappeared.

He answered back, thanking me for reaching out and told me that he’d just been super busy with travel and he couldn’t believe that a few weeks had already gone by. Then he suggested “beverages next week”, which left me with a vague possibility of seeing him again. Eh. Fine.

But early this morning, he sent me a text telling me that he was off on another early morning flight but he’d be back later this week and asked me if I wanted to have dinner on Thursday. Now we’re talking! Something definite. We are ON…unless he rainchecks me or something. I’ll let you know.

So yes, remember how I sent The Bulldog a message on his birthday and lo and behold, he wrote me back from Paris? We exchanged emails back and forth for a while and we decided that when he was back we’d have dinner. He basically asked me when and where and he’d be there.

I never responded to that, so he actually texted me on Friday, teasing me with a tidbit about what happened in Paris, and chiding me because I hadn’t gotten back to him about dinner. I was out having dinner with Maria when his text came through. When I got home it wasn’t too late by Bulldog standards, so I just called while I was walking the dog.

We talked for a while, and as we did, I slowly came to the realization that I’m finally, FINALLY over him. See, it may have felt like the doors were opening back up to him, but to me, it felt like closure.

Although we had a great conversation and we laughed a lot and shared a lot of info, he’s still sad and he always will be. He’s still weird and he always will be. And that’s OK! It’s just not for me.

I’m glad I finally learned that. I mean, imagine, years of being sad simply because he blocked me from social media…lifted away and disappeared. I’m not sad anymore. I’m really just not anything anymore about the BD.

He’s finally part of my past. Good.

I have a million other things to write about but I can’t think of what they are right now and I need to get a move-on at the office, so I’m going to sign off for now.

Until later, my friends!

xox,
GS