Not sure what's next in Mental Health, 2017

My brain was completely scrambled Wednesday after my therapy appt. This was the appt that she was supposed to tell me the details about her new job, how to go about initiating the transfer legally since she can’t recruit patients, and all that jazz. Imagine my surprise when she said “I don’t actually have a job lined up after this.”

Ummmmm…

That doesn’t fit the story. I have trust issues. Don’t fuck with me. I beg you not to lie to me. Maybe she DID have another job offer and it fell through, but why wouldn’t she just say that? Did the clinic find out she was telling patients that she got a job elsewhere? I have completely come to terms with the fact that come October, I’ll never see her again.

According to FB, she’s a divorced, single mother of a 3-4 yr old. Last time I checked, divorced single mothers of toddlers didn’t just up and quit their jobs without something else lined up.

Am I too difficult of a patient? I don’t think I am. On Wednesday she said she still plans on signing me up with a DBT group and she wants me to see TWO therapists. My brain was too busy absorbing all of this info to ask any questions. She highly hinted that I should see the other therapist at the same clinic I go to now because that therapist does EMDR therapy and she also thinks I need that. I’m starting to think I’m too difficult of a patient. I have so many questions about the multiple therapists suggestion, but my spinning brain didn’t think of them while I was still there.

Of course, she might have completely different news ideas at my next appt Friday, Sept 15th. If she does have another gig lined up, I wish she’d just be honest with me and let me know she can’t take me on as a patient if I really am that difficult of a case as she’s leading me to believe: DBT thereapy, EMDR & TWO therapists. I do hope she knows I’m not made of money.

I’m really not that crazy. Thoughts on this?