Summer 6/22/2002
I know a few of my high school friends sometimes read this diary. I'm sorry if you're offended by anything I say, but hell...this is my diary after all...
As much as I love being home and having my own room, this summer has been slightly depressing. Erin, Dionne, and Justin all live in other states that would take me hours to get to. My friends from high school and I seem to have drifted, even though we maintained contact throughout the school year. They all work at MacDonalds together, so they get to see each other a few times a week. I like the idea of being a camp counselor, and I would never work at MacDonalds. (No offense to anyone who does. Its just the thought of working with greasy food, and being indoors during the summer would really piss me off).
Sonia hasn't talked to me since the last time we hung out more than three weeks ago. I know she went on a cruise with her relatives. She had IMed me about a week ago telling me how fabulous the cruise was and sent me a picture of the guys she and her cousin were hanging out with. Beautiful boys...Anyway, so Sonia IMed me to tell me that she had "fallen in love," despite the fact that she's in a two year relationship with the guy who's living with her. She had to go suddenly, and told me she'd call me later. She didn't.
Sonia and I have an odd relationship. We used to be SO close, especially in ninth and tenth grade. In eleventh she started to change, and by middle of twelfth grade, she had left school. Anyway, we won't speak for a long period of time because I get fed up with calling her, and her never returning my phone calls. So she'll usually IM me out of the blue (although last time she actually called me up in Syracuse) to tell me how much she misses me and that she doesn't want us to drift. So everything'll be fine for a little while, and then the cycle starts all over again. I love her though; she's the only person I could ever talk to, and she would just UNDERSTAND. I wouldn't have to explain.
As for the others...I don't know. I ran into Blossom, who's another high school friend of mine. We didn't really speak that much after we graduated h.s., and then during second semester she starts IMing me, asking me how things are. We ran into each other at the elementary school because we were both picking up our brothers. She asked for my number, because she said she had lost it, and I gave it to her. I mentioned that I didn't have her number either, so she said she'd give it to me when she called me. Never called.
Panama goes to a local community college here. Since she stayed home, and everyone else went away, except for Blossom, Panama became really close friends with her neighbors, who are kids that are still in high school. She kind of has a new life now, and that's fine, but it feels weird now with her. I don't know how to explain it. We've hung out a few times, but it doesn't feel like we're friends any more.
Angyl's a sweet girl, but we were never overly close. She's stayed friends with a lot of her younger friends in h.s., so she hangs out with them a lot, and she works crazy hours because she helps pay for tuition, credit card bills and such.
Batman, as cool as she is, is a weird chick. She actually has a phobia of the telephone. Don't ask me why, but she does. She once told me that in high school, and I laughed because I thought she was joking, but then realized she wasn't. She just doesn't call people. She's not real big on going out either. ::Sigh:: I am friends with some interesting characters, I know.
Fred totally has me baffled. He goes to UMD, and would sent me bi-weekly e-mails of his articles that he would write for the school newspaper. He invited me to his holiday party over Christmas break, and we've exchanged e-mails over the school year. I e-mailed him two or three times since May and he never responded. We had gotten into a minor disagreement earlier in the year because I had sent him a news article that used the word JAP in it. (JAP = Jewish American Princess). Long story...But anyway...
None of these people are cruel. I understand that some of them have just moved on, while others are just busy, and others are a combination of the two. Its just I watch my sister an my brother John go out with their friends and I'm envious. Between the summer programs I've attended and college, I have friends/acquaintances in easily half a dozen different states, but none of my friendships are as close as the ones my sister has. I dunno, I'm in a weird mood again, plus its a Saturday evening, and I hate the weekends.
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