The concert at Weezer just showed me how much I didn't belong at Syracuse. Erin, Justin, and Dionne are nice enough but they're not my real friends. It was just little things that they kept doing. Justin and Erin are really close, and that's fine, but I constantly feel like a third wheel when I'm with them. Whether they do it on purpose or not, they tend to exclude me. It's so frustrating because I feel like I wasted my freshman year. Everyone talks about how frosh year is supposed to be the best. It's a Friday night and I'm sitting in my room listening to Bubba Sparx. (Sparks?). Erin told me that she and Justin were going out to Blockbuster to get a movie. That was over an hour ago and they're still not back. Helen's not answering the phone. ::sigh:: Boredom.
I tried passing the time by drawing in my floor lounge. My art pad is too big for me to draw comfortably in my room. Besides, I need to do a still life and I have no idea where to set it up without it getting moved. I was drawing in the floor lounge when Heidi comes into the lounge and starts peering over my shoulder. If she had asked, "What are you doing?" I probably would've smacked her. I hate it when people ask stupid questions. I mean, I have a drawing pad in my lap, I have charcoal pencils off to the side, and a still-life is set up. What do you think I'm doing?
Anyway, so she something to the effect that I'm an amazing artist. She hasn't said a damn word to me since the first week of first semester. I guess I'll take compliments where I can get them.
Then Justin and Erin came into the lounge. It sort of pisses me off that Erin will never ask me to go with her, only Justin.
Alright, Helen just walked into my room, I'll finish my story later
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