Loners 10/27/2001
As for outside of school...my ego is taking some serious hits. I'm beginning to think there's just something wrong with my personality. The people in my hall aren't outright mean to me, but they don't like me. They'll come into my room all the time and ask for Linda. I've tried not to be too pushy or too quiet, but I think I'm doing something wrong. I've tried to start conversations with them when they come into my room, but they kind of just cut me off and ask where Linda is. I dunno...I guess some people are made to be loners. I have Erin and Helen, but Helen is set on transferring out of here next year. The only thing is that she's applying to schools like Connecticut College, which has a 35% acceptance rate for transfers. Helen's doing really well; she has an A in everything except chemistry, which is giving everyone problems. So if Helen leaves, as of next year I'll have one friend.
I have lots of acquaintences, but when it comes to the weekend, they always seem to disappear or be busy. I met this one girl, Shekatree, who's absolutely stunning and brilliant. I hate her...Just kidding. I actually called her up asking her if she wanted to hang out later. I called her phone number later that night and got a message that only had one voice mail. I left a message, thinking maybe Shekatree didn't have voice mail and her roommate did. Shekatree never called me back, so I'm not sure what was going on. I know for a fact that I had the right phone number, because i had called her earlier and she answered.
I also met a girl named Angela, who's more Helen's friend than mine. I called her on Friday, and I left a message with her roommate, but I doubt Angela got it. Her roommate sucks like that. However, I had asked Angela if she wanted to see a movie with us later. She could've called me...I'm just so sick of chasing people down.
I'm thinking about pledging for a sorority, but I'm terrified. When I went to Hillel for the first time, it was an absolute disaster. I remember Linda and this group of girls were sitting in a circle of chairs and talking. There were no more chairs left, so I had to stand outside of the little circle. The girls had problems talking to me because they had to crane their necks to look at me whenever I spoke, After awhile, they just kind of ignored me. Finally, Linda got up and offered me her chair. I tried talking to the girls, but they left about five minutes later, so I ended up sitting in the circle by myself. Linda, who was standing outside of the circle, where I was standing a few minutes earlier, had a bunch of guys come over to her and start talking to her. One of these guys was Seth, who Linda is now still dating.
Finally, I made some excuse about having work to do and left. Imagine doing that at fourteen sorority houses.
At first, Linda was dead set against pledging for a sorority. I was so happy because I finally could do something without her. Yeah well, she told me last week that she decided she was going to pledge. Granted, there are fourteen sorority houses, but the way my luck is going, we'll end up in the same one. Or even worse, she'll get into one and I won't.
Greek life is the only way to go in Syracuse. All of the bars on Marshal Street are 21 and over and they seriously check ID's. Frat parties suck. Everyone stands around with a cup of beer while some pop remix is going on. Luckily, Erin has a car, so we can go to the one 18 and over club, called Country Club. The Club itself kicks ass, but after going there every weekend, it gets boring. Whoever said Syracuse was a drinking school either had a really good fake ID or had a lot of 21 year old friends. I actually have to ask my sister to send me up alcohol because it's so hard to drink here. Becca's so busy with her boyfriend and her friends, I doubt she'll do it anyway.
Yeah...University of Rochester is notorious for having a pretty quiet social scene. It'll probably be even harder for me to make friends because i'll be going in there a year after everyone else. At this point, I know I'm a loner and don't expect anything else. I just want to be a doctor. UR has the better science program, so that's where I'm trying to go. My other option is Binghamton. If I go there, I'll have to drop art because Binghamton has absolutely no art program. However, it has a much better social life, and I'll automatically be in a sorority because my sister was in Delta Phi Epsilon, which makes me a legacy. I know I'm transferring; it's just a question of where.
Until my next ramble
Artist
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