My Birthday is Tomorrow... 10/1/2001
This morning I had to get up at seven in the morning so I could go across campus at nine and put my lab in my TA's mailbox. My lab last week had been canceled and I didn't know we were supposed to reschedule another one. I came back from my chemistry lab at 9:30 at night. I probably would've been back even later, but luckily, my TA let us go instead of making us do it over. I failed a lab quiz today. I know how to do things, but there are so many ways to set up a formula I don't always recognize it when I see it.
I looked up information on getting math tutors. A math tutor charges $30 per hour and a chemistry tutor (get this) charges $70 per hour. These tutors aren't even through the math and chemistry departments. Its not that I don't understand the material; it that I don't understand the way my teachers set it up on tests. I went to the math clinic today, which was free. The guy's English wasn't so good, and I'm not clear on all of the material, but is better than nothing. I'm handing in my corrections to my math test tomorrow. He's supposed to add one point onto our final average for every test that we correct. However, some of my corrections may still not be correct because I was still unsure about some of them. He better give me credit for it because the corrections are three pages long and took me an hour and a half to do, plus almost an hour with the guy at the math clinic.
Helen informed me last night that she's transferring to Connecticut College. She really didn't want to go here in the first place and planned to transfer since the first day she's been here. I've made only two friends in six weeks and already I'm losing one.
Erin loves it here. Me, Helen, and Erin went to a club the weekend before I left for home. Within the first five minutes, a hot blonde guy starts hitting on Erin. The two of them basically disappeared for the night. Nothing happened, just some really heavy groping. Helen and I spent most of the night running and dancing. All of the guys who hit on us were either in their 30's or really sketchy college boys. It was funny at the time. When I got home that morning I e-mailed my parents that "College kicks ass." I really spoke too soon, because now they don't want to hear me when I'm upset.
Instead of the three of us going out on Friday night, Erin is going out somewhere with the guy she met at the club. What awesome luck...finding a hot guy who calls. Helen can't go out Thursday night because she needs to study.
This girl who I've known since first grade is going into the Air Force later this month. Actually she's leaving for Texas later this month. On one hand, I want her here to visit, but on the other, I don't because I have enough things to stress over. My computer broke down again so I'm currently in the computer lab. I'm failing math and not doing so hot in the rest of my subjects. I'm crying everyday because everything has fallen into place for people like Erin, Linda, and my friend Angyl. Six weeks ago they were like me; quiet, hard-working, not much experience with boys, etc. They walked into college and everything just worked for them. I'm still waiting. Anyway, so on top of everything I have to deal with the stress of my friend going into the Air Force when we're on the brink of a third world war.
I asked my sister not to come up for my birthday tomorrow. I don't need ot hear how wonderfully her life is going. For my b'day I going to be in the computer lab or the lounge studying all day so I may actually pass my classes. I'm thinking of switching to another school; where I'm not sure, but I can't take Syracuse any more. Or maybe it's just me.
Until later
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