Terrified College Freshman 8/21/2001
The title explains it all. Everyone keeps telling me that college is the best time of my life. What if its not? What if college is only so-so, but it turns out that that was the pinnacle of my life? Hopefully, I didn't reach my pinnacle yet because that'd just be awfully depressing. My biggest fear is that everything stays the same. I remain the quiet goody-goody that I was known as in high school.
Today was my last day of camp. I watched as all the counselors said good-bye to John. They really love him there...I've always just been the quiet sister. I don't mean to be quiet. I just can't go up to people and start conversations the way Becca does. I don't make hilariously funny comments like John. I'm not adorable like Jake. I've always felt like a dud. At SU, I won't have them there, but I always feel that in anironic twist, I tend to be friends with people who have Jake, Becca, and John's personalities. I mean, all of my friends are either beauties like Becca, comedians like John, or angels like Jake.
I want things to change, but I don't know how to change them. I almost expect people to not like me, which makes me distance myself from people.
I'm really not sure what advice I want, or what I'm even trying to say; I guess its just a nervous ramble.
Until later
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