Puffy Dresses and Silver Slippers 5/16/2001
Yes, it's the big event everyone looks forward to since junior high...prom. What's the big [expletive] deal, may I ask? (I'm trying to cut down on my cursing...it's a horrible habit I want to break before I go to Syracuse). A lot of people from my grade aren't going because they're on acaemic probation, which prohibits them from going. Two friends of mine aren't going, but are either hanging out with her neighbors or hanging out with her boyfriend. I had suggested that we rent a motel room and throw ouselves a party, but they both pretty much agreed they wanted to save their money and stay home. Which means I have to stay home, which is pretty embarrassing. My sister went to two proms, and I'm stuck sitting home watching tv.
My friend Jen came up to me today during my free period, excitedly telling me she has a date for prom. (Her mother set her up on a blind date with one off her colleague's son.) She had bought two prom tickets way before, even though she didn't have a date. Jen is absolutely stunning (5'8", model's body, beautiful face, hair, etc etc). If we weren't such good friends I'd have to hate her. Anyway, she knows she's beautiful and can act a bit cocky sometimes. She bought two tickets because she figured she'd have a couple of offers to go to the prom. Cut to the chase, it's a week before prom and no-one had asked her. To quote Jen, "I didn't want to be some loser and go to prom stag or something."So she has this blind date with this supposedly hot guy and she's very happy. I'm happy for her, but I feel really crummy...Like I said in the last entry, I've always felt like an outsider in that school. I'm almost 19 and I feel like I missed the party.
Anyway, the day after my English AP exam, the 12th, my teacher Mrs. Montgrey was going around the classroom asking everyone who they were going to prom with. Do you know how terrible it is to be the only one in class to say, "I'm not going. I'm going to a party instead." The second part was a lie, but I felt like I needed a semi-acceptable excuse for not going. My teacher just nodded, and kind of looked at some of my friends with this odd expression. I guess she knew that my excuse translated into, "No-one asked me." I have three guy friends, two of which have dates, and the other being MJ. Who I no longer really count as a friend, so I guess I just have two.
To top everything off, my "friends" can be real jerks when they want to be. Ok, granted, I'm not going to prom, but I would definitely want to hang out with everyone else over the weekend. A bunch of them planned to go to NYC, and I, of course, was forgotten. It's not like this is the first time either. One of my friends suggested that I ask them to tag along. Yeah, I could ask them to tag along, but it'd be really nice of them to invite me along for once. It seems that the only time they invite me somewhere is when they're having a birthday party, or a graduation party and presents for them are involved. I don't know whether they do it to be malicious or not, but they've been doing it for the past three years and it really irks me. I can understand forgetting once in awhile, but this is getting ridiculous.
Fred once demanded to know why I wasn't going to graduation? "Don't you want to hear me and Angyl sing?" he demanded. (They're the Class Singers.) "If you were ouor friend, you would go." How ironic. Not a single one of them has ever remembered my birthday, including this year, they've never gone to one of my art shows, or even congradulated me when I won Class Artist. Uh-huh....
God, why am I in such a bad mood???!!! I think I need to take off some school...I'll take off the rest of the week, I think. I deserve some mental health days. My AP Biology exam went pretty good by the way. I wrote one of the essays in the wrong section though. I didn't have enough time to recopy it into the correct section, so I just made a note in the packet, explaining what happened. Even if they don't count it, I did well on the other three essays and I think I did fairly well on the multiple choice. I'm really hoping for a three...Anyway, I'm done rambling for now.
Phobia of the Day: Catagelophobia- Fear of being ridiculed
Until later
Artist
p.s. If this is Angyl reading this, don't get offended, because I don't necessarily mean you
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