Losing Becca 1/9/2001
The person who said "Distance makes the heart grow fonder" obviously didn't have a sister. Becca and I have been fighting more now that she's gone away to college. She was home for a three-day vacation in September (she doesn’t come home very often to begin with) and spent one night hanging out with her boyfriend, she hung out one day with my brothers and I, that night she went out with her friend at 6 p.m. and didn’t come home until 2 a.m. This what I’m talking about when I call her flighty. She didn’t have a key and she had been asked by my mother to not to come home too late. Becca said, "No, Mom, don’t worry, I’ll be back by ten." My dad was so pissed when he came home and found out he had to wait for Becca. He had work the next morning, he had to get up early, and frankly, he wanted to just lock her out. We couldn’t just leave the door unlocked because that’s just asking for someone to rob us. Around midnight I took pity on my father and relieved him of his duty. So, I waited in the cold kitchen, dead tired for my sister to come home. When she finally did, I just wanted to smack her and kiss her at the same time. I’m the type of person who gets really nervous when their family/friends stay out much later than they had expected to. Becca then asked me the stupidest thing she’d ever asked (quite a feat, believe me): " Artist, are you mad at me?" She seemed surprised. No, twit, I like staying up at 2 am in the cold kitchen so I can unlock the door for you. And once again, Becca’s on vacation from school and where is she? Out with her friends, of course. I’m not saying she shouldn’t hang out with her friends over vacation, but leaving every other day (and the days she’s not gone, she has her boyf over) is getting ridiculous. She’s become a totally different person ever since she left for college. I know people change when they go away, but instead of getting smarter, she’s gotten dumber. Four years ago, had someone asked me who I was the closest with, I would answer without hesitation, Becca. Now, she’s so far down on the list she’s not even in my top fifteen. It’s so sad that we’ve grown so far apart. I was looking at old pictures of us—we’re barely two years apart, and when we were young, we were mistaken for twins—looking so happy together, with out arms around each other.
I used to try talking to Becca about the things that have been bothering me, but she'd either blow it off like it was a big joke, or take me seriously and change her behavior...for a day, maybe two. Then she'd start up again. It's horrible to say, but I think I've given up on her.
Do you know how I found out that Becca lost her virginity to Jordan? Some sleaze named Danny, whom Jordan had bragged to, yelled to me on the bus, "Yo! You Becca’s sister?" Yes… "Did you know that Jordan’s f**king her?" Do you have any idea how embarrassing it is to have an entire bus hear that your sister is sleeping with someone? Even more humiliating is the fact that Danny knew more about my sister than I did. A piece of me kind of died that day. I had to snoop through her diary to find out if it was true. It’s so indescribably sad… The only reason I knew about Becca’s dating Kyle is because my father told me that Becca told him. Even he looked surprised that Becca hadn’t told me. One of the worst things a person has to go through is losing a sister…
Until next time
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