Transition? Oh I Hope So in Everyday Ramblings
- Aug. 18, 2017, 8:42 a.m.
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Yesterday I got all my stitches out! I had to wait an hour from my appointment time because the surgery my specialist was doing earlier ran long but it was great to get the all clear. Everything is healing well and I don’t need to see him for 3 ½ months.
I do have an appointment to get my teeth cleaned in a couple of weeks and I am thrilled about that because once again I have been asked to use the rinse that stains my teeth. But he says I can use it in a more localized (and non visible) way now.
It was a gorgeous mild late summer day. The air was relatively clear at least compared to how it has been lately. It was dry and I had a free evening afterwards and you would think I would be happy, giddy happy.
I have enough money in my budget for the rest of the procedures that will happen in December so for the first time in two years I can make plans for gifts and clothes and save for that new bike and a proper vacation.
Nimrod told me on Wednesday that although there was previously some threat that our jobs might be re-orged out of existence that the prevailing perspective among management is that our work is valuable and our positions will be protected for the foreseeable future. This is helped by the fact that one of our allied coworkers is disaffected and has decided to retire next month and will not be replaced.
Do more with less!
Our customers love us. We each got free movie tickets and a heartfelt note of thanks from our Emergency Services team this week. The appreciation is mutual.
I have had good classes this week, we have been focusing on our shoulder/neck area and my students were clearly tired on Wednesday so I taught a much simpler slower class than I had planned and my shoulders felt fabulous afterwards. Note to Self.
Sometimes less in more.
I was blue last night. Tired and blue. I needed about 3,000 more steps to hit my daily goal so I went for a walk with my headphones. I took the above picture of the park next to my place because I was enchanted by the light.
Everything feels difficult right now. Work, we had a totally random weird technical problem that took a whole day to resolve, somebody on the technical side forgot to do this one simple step. The cats have allergies that need to be addressed. The news is just horrid, so much suffering and weird acting out. And I have complex structural changes to make in the next month in my teaching schedule that need to be implemented and explained.
Everything feels loud and overbearing. There is so much traffic, so much visible drug addiction and mental illness. Everybody has opinions and is not shy about expressing them.
I am exhausted. Trying to keep up a normal work schedule (with overtime), teaching, keeping up with teaching material and then having all these surgeries…
It is kind of crazy to expect I could do all that and not suffer some consequences.
This fall I am going to see if I can build myself a sanctuary, both internal and somewhat external in which I can abide with kindness towards myself (as well as others) and nourish myself so that I can continue to support and adore others.
And relish what I hope are quiet uneventful months ahead.
At least in my small little orbit.
More or less.
Last updated August 18, 2017
woman in the moon ⋅ August 18, 2017
I blame August. It's a bad month. It and February just go on and one and then when they're over you're not happy either.
A sanctuary sounds really good. I will think about that too.
Your shadows are good. Glad you got your steps and took the photo.
Lyn ⋅ August 18, 2017
Congrats on the all clear.
The cats aren't allergic to people are they?😼
ODSago ⋅ August 18, 2017
I do think that idea of making yourself a sanctuary of quiet and appreciation would be a lovely move after all that has been on your shoulders for a long time. Your photo speaks to me of a yearning for just that. That scene just speaks of peace and quiet and beauty. It's so important to have realizations of our efforts being respected and appreciated and it seems you have those well-deserved responses right now. Savor that....and yes I agree the sadness of these times and this political setting is everywhere which takes nothing away from your private life's appreciation and realizations. We draw strength from our private lives to apply to the body politic.
Zipster ⋅ August 18, 2017
I love the light in your photo; I can't believe there is no one in the space enjoying it. We so need sanctuary these days. My brother lives up on a ridge in Big Sur without a TV and sketchy reception. He hadn't heard about Charlottesville and Trump's inappropriate response. I told him to stay up on his ridge.
noko Zipster ⋅ August 18, 2017
The park has an interesting history. The first non native use was an iron baron's mansion and grounds. He decided to move and left it to the county and it became our first county hospital. But after the flu pandemic in 1918 they tore it down because it was too germy and moved it up to the big hill back behind us. The building for the nurses dorm is still there, not used now but was the Children's Museum for a time. Then in the sixties the park was full of music and crazy hippy activism. There is also a Carnegie library building on the property now used by the Parks Department. The only folks that really use the park now are dog walkers, kids from the very exclusive private elementary school across the street and a regular Tai Chi class. Sorry. Probably TMI. :)
Marg noko ⋅ August 25, 2017
On the contrary - I really enjoyed reading that!
edna million ⋅ August 18, 2017
A sanctuary sounds like such a great idea. I am starting to wonder how any of us are functioning at all at this point. The BBC just announced Bannon's been fired, so maybe things are looking up. A teeny bit. Haven't seen any US confirmation of that, oddly, but that seems to be how it usually goes.
noko edna million ⋅ August 18, 2017
Yes. A little light in the darkness to have Bannon moving on today.
edna million ⋅ August 18, 2017
And that light is just stunning!
Deleted user ⋅ August 19, 2017
Me thinks you need a holiday far away from everything familiar to you.😊
Deleted user ⋅ August 23, 2017
A vacation for you would be lovely !
Marg ⋅ August 25, 2017
That park looks like such a calm place - beautiful light!