I Might Be Stupid... in Fresh Start...

So yeah… I might be really stupid.

Let’s start with the weekend…

On Friday I took my cat back to the vet. He was being weird. Checked his blood, rbcs are down closer to normal than they were, but his blood sugar is really low… they wanted to observe him overnight etc but that was gonna be like $1000 so I passed. Been giving him honey to keep his blood sugar up. Got an appt tomorrow with my regular vet to get his opinion on everything.

Friday night I hung out with the ex hubby and then we went to see Dark Tower with BA. It was really good and the theater we went to has awesome leather recliner seats… sooooo comfy!

Slept til 9 Saturday morning bc I was out late. Had a missed call from V bc apparently he and his dad had car issues near my house but by the time I called him back the tow truck was there. I’d left my phone on silent the night before by accident. Then he was all bugging me to go to lunch so I said ok. So he picked me up and we were going to try a hot chicken place but it was super crowded, so we ended up at my favorite Italian place. And he insisted on paying again… After, we drove around, then stopped at the mall to get free gelato from my sister. Then we stopped at home depot. Sometime in there JM called me and I didn’t answer but then he texted me asking if I wanted to go to the aforementioned chicken place. So probably a good thing I decided to not wait in line there.

So then once V and I got back to my place I said I needed to clean. So then he kept insisting on helping me clean. Then he was trying to rub my back etc. I ended up letting him spend the night bc I kinda just felt bad.

On Saturday F had texted me about hanging out on Sunday because he wanted to do meal prep stuff. He had said he wanted to try to be here at 9:30 Sunday morning. I honestly expected him to cancel on me. So come Sunday morning, V is here and I’m like let’s go get breakfast thinking I can nicely kick him out after, but it was later than I thought. So on the way to breakfast my phone went off and it was F saying he was headed out. I knew it would take him like 45 minutes at least to get there, so I told V that it was my dad texting to say he was on his way to my house and had him hurry to breakfast and then leave. Luckily I managed it. Not that F could really say anything about it, but it would hurt V’s feelings if he knew I was still hanging out with F.

So anyways, F got here and we hung out for a little bit, then headed to Costco. Got back and started cooking. Once we were done we had like probably 30 minutes or so before he needed to leave for work. We were kinda hugging on each other and I was flirting a little bit. I had joked earlier about distracting him and thought he completely got it, but I asked him how mad he would be if I tried to distract him. He said “distract me how?” So I started kissing his neck for a minute and then pulled back. He said “well the couch is right there.” I honestly didn’t think it would be that easy…

So I led him to the couch and we started kissing and I undid his pants. I went down on him for a minute, then sat on his lap. We went at it for a few minutes, then I got on my knees on the couch facing the back and he stood behind me. It was ridiculously hot. He even kinda talked dirty and he’s rarely vocal during sex and he never says he loves anything, but he said “I love how wet you get.” At a certain point I thought he was done, but when I went to move he just pushed me back into the couch and kept going. I think it was probably the best sex we’ve ever had.

I think he’s ok with having a friends with benefits situation so long as the guys at work don’t know about it. I get that. So it may be stupid, but being around him makes me happy. Guess we’ll see what happens.

Last updated August 08, 2017