So drove to Springfield today for the first time. And to me that’s a big step in my anxiety world… because highways and big crowds (yes even crowds of cars) make me freak out with the shakes…
My anxiety mostly consists of feeling claustrophobic, heavy breathing, the shakes, random panic attacks. And I kid you not the other day during dinner I had one of my normal anxiety attacks and passed out at the table. It’s unpredictable sometimes. What’s frustrating is my Sophomore of college is about to start in a week or so. Which means my test anxiety is gonna start up again.
My husband knows about my anxiety episodes of course. But, I feel bad for him sense he’s not sure what he is supposed to do when it starts. I honestly don’t know what I’m supposed to do. Ive dealt with it for so long I’m used to it (which is probably not a good thing).
People asked me if I’m medically diagnosed with anxiety. And I say no. Then they respond with an oh then you don’t have anxiety it’s all in your head. No, I am well aware that I have anxiety I’m just afraid to take the medication for it. I’m afraid of it changing who I am and how my personality functions. I don’t want my husband thinking to himself that’s not my wife. You know?
I know that I’m not alone in this battle with severe anxiety. I won’t be selfish about that. I know that there are different types of anxiety as well. And I believe that people feel the same way I do. If anyone is out there who had any advice for me.. I’d gladly take it!
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