I feel you in The First Life

I’ve been writing with pen and paper. Every day facing the sun in hopes it’ll feed me. I’m reciting the good, the good, the good. Smiling to blank faces and breathing deep into my belly.
I’m finding myself in new ways. I’ve got plans and people and ideas that stretch far and wide. I’m lucky. I’m thankful. I’m finding my way back.
Something is still nagging. Always. Tick. Tick. Tick. Like a moth that keeps tapping the ceiling . Trying to break through that barrier. Trying to touch the light. To feel the warmth.

I feel you.

I shouldn’t be seeking answers. I should be able to shut it up. Why can’t I? My heart races.... thumping louder, thumping faster..
Saw his smile in someone else. Felt my heart below my toes, my body nearly followed. The way those lips curl more on one side, thin. And those lines that form as the eyes narrow, the ones that read ‘only you and I’.
Once it was. I was in love with that feeling.
Like we were spinning, the world buzzing by, but he and I were in focus.

I feel you

I don’t know when it will end. But now my body and heart and mind are free. Like they have been unconsciously given permission.... Like someone has given them wings to reach the sun.

Let me find your warmth… one more time

Last updated July 26, 2017