06/14/2017 in Mental Health, 2017

I should get a gold star folks. I made it through the entire day without cancelling my therapy appointment they had literally just scheduled for me. I legit almost had a panic attack thinking about it last night. Like this is real life. I had to do not one but two breathing exercises to calm down. I ended up calming myself by reassuring my brain that I could call and cancel the appt today.

I had the perfect excuse and everything. I was going to tell them that First Name Last Name, LMHC was not an in-network provider with my insurance and I couldn’t afford to pay out of pocket. It was legit because she WASN’T an in-network provider for my 3 appts in feb. I still got a discount for those appts, so I wasn’t paying the full blown price, but I wasn’t paying my small copay either. Of course, I didn’t realize she was out-of-network until after the first bill came in the mail.

So it seemed like the perfect excuse!

Until I checked my insurance’s website to make sure she still wasn’t in-network. Nope she totally is now. I must not have been the only one with this insurance provider and she had literally just started working at the clinic I go to that month. I can go for cheap now…what I thought it was going to be last time. But yeah, excuse fully ruined.

And I realize how much i regretted the last time I cancelled. And how I cancelled.

I’m trying to be less impulsive guys. SO I’m forcing myself to wait a week before making any cancellations. Man, she just HAD to become in-network.