5/22 in --

I’m having a difficult time getting out of bed for the past week.
I don’t feel depressed, but I know I’m going through a bout of it. My body feels heavy, sore in some places, and I can sleep and sleep and it’s not enough. I’m in a fog and my body feels like it weighs a zillion pounds.
It’ll pass. It’s just inconveniencing. I can push through it most of the time, but it’s taxing.

I’m off of work until… well, maybe next week, if I get this job. I haven’t heard anything back yet. I’m off of my other job until the fall. I needed a break. But I also need to work.

I had plans for this week. I need to catch up on laundry. I want to run everyday (I only did two days last week). I want to learn more Excel and SQL stuff. I want to finish the binder books for the kids. I have other goals that are still on hold for now as well.

I feel indifferent to getting this summer job, but I know I need the experience and the money wouldn’t be bad either. I don’t make nearly what my partner does, but I know I help, at least a little.

Cannon had his pre-k graduation ceremony at daycare and it was SO PRECIOUS. He was super enthusiastic about all of it, and when they sang songs, he sang the loudest. I adore that kid. I also have to say that Lorelei is spunky and silly, and I love those about her. I love seeing them grow and how their personalities solidifying. When I was at the pre-k ceremony, I just felt so happy to be a mother. My children are wonderful little people, even when they drive me nuts when they don’t use their listening ears sometimes. :)

I spent the weekend watching the new Kimmy Schmidt episodes and the new Twin Peaks (we stayed up way too late watching all of the episodes because we couldn’t stop), then proceeded to have nightmares when I went to sleep!

I had other things I wanted to say, but I need more coffee and I feel fatigued.