The day didn’t get much better yesterday. The only thing I could do was take deep breaths and take things one step at a time. Just like every day. I will say that at one point in the day I felt heart palpitations, and I thought that NO job is worth killing yourself over. I will get done what I can get done - and of course, I’ll do my best, but I can only do so much and take so much chaos.
Today will be insane as well, starting with a meeting in 10 minutes, but at least I didn’t wake to a HUGE and gnarly emergency this morning. I’ll take that as a good sign.
It’s 8:15. I’ve asked my team to be here by at least 8am while the investors do the walk-throughs. Guess who be-bops in just now? Yep. Negative C. What a passive-aggressive a-hole. I’m so over her. She came in on time ONCE since this process started. She sure is showing me, isn’t she? Ha.
All of it just makes me feel like I have ZERO support. I’m in this alone. Best Bud even WORKS here…she works IN MY OFFICE and I never see her. Ever. Something is wrong with this picture. I think it was [Elaine Benes] who was writing yesterday about how important it is to have an office BFF…and I just don’t really like anyone here. I thought it would be different when Best Bud came to work here, but we’re both so busy that we can’t even go to lunch together - we rarely even try anymore. And after work, she’s got her family to go home to in a suburb that’s the opposite direction of where I work.
Yes, relationships grow and sometimes grow apart. I’m not sad about Best Bud, really. I’m happy she has her life and is doing well at work. But I’m lonely at the office in that I don’t have an ally.
And I’m even lonelier at home because I don’t have a partner who’s got my back.
Must change things. Must make this a priority. Immediately.
Off to start another weekday.
xox,
GS
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