WTF? in Book of M...

I’m not sure… the other night I made plans to go to this Science of Beer thing as part of a 21st birthday party. I thought oh I’ll have one drink at home before I go and loosen up and have a great night. Nope. One drink basically made me black out drunk. I don’t remember most of the night.

The next morning I was alone and felt terrible. After I went through my texts I was pretty sure M wouldn’t want to talk to me anytime soon. Lots of I need yous and I want yous. At least I didn’t tell him I love him. So I guess it could have been worse. Though I’m pretty sure one of my texts said I want you all the time. My drunk self wasn’t lying but damn she needs to keep some info to herself.

Anyways I woke up to this super sappy not my style love note from JM. Just no.

Like I said I didn’t really expect M to want to talk to me, but was a little shocked when he called me the next afternoon to see how I was feeling. Ok, a lot shocked.

I had plans with JM the next day/last night to go get dinner and go see Rogue 1. Before meeting him I ran by work to get my Christmas cards that I accidentally left there and need to mail out. So I got to see M and hug on him for a minute. He’s been sick recently which I hate so I’ve been trying to take care of him and make him feel better. Meds and potato soup and cuddles etc. He’s feeling better now which is good.

Anyways, went to Red Robin and ordered a wrap with grilled chicken bc M suggested I eat grilled chicken bc of my hangover. I really think the potatoes helped too. I was pretty sleepy by movie time and the movie was good. Enjoyable but sad. Though I was dozing off here and there. I felt a little bad about it, but when I was getting all drowsy and JM was trying to hold my hand etc.. I was daydreaming about M. And not anything dirty, just what it would feel like to have him holding my hand or putting his arm around me. It was some pretty enjoyable daydreaming. Yes I know that’s a weird thing to daydream about.

Came home and fed everyone. Opened my box of new dishes. I really need to get out of bed, put on clothes, and clean, but it’s so dark and rainy and nasty looking outside… only really good for napping and sex. And chicken and dumplings from Cracker barrel sounds amazing right now but no one to eat with.