Snow in diary

We did have snow the other day but this morning was the first day of looking down and seeing roofs and ground all puffy white. It looked peaceful but today made me feel…sad. As I walked away from the window, something that would have made me feel calm and nice before, I wondered why it was different..
I have been feeling sucky and sorry for myself lately. Maybe that. Or there was a flash of the last time that snow made me feel so good, and then discovering that that snow covering had been a contributing cause in Joe’s accident.
Joe is/was my granddaughter’s father. I never much liked him but in the last little bit…4 or so years ago now that he died…he had stepped up when Chan had been stepping down. He was assholish about it to Chan and did his best to look like all that to me at her expense, but he stepped up and his parents stepped up even more. And, even if I did not like him, my Granddaughter lost her Dad and I would not wish that on anyone.
So I don’t know if that is why the snow made me sad. It did cross my mind though..so probably part of it. I did an integration and still am melancholy.

And in the area of updates. The back of the leg is not stinging today but is still very red. Seems to be dry so fingers crossed for it to be gone tomorrow.
Went to Christmas train last night with Kath and kids. It was beautiful but was almost 2 hours late standing out in the cold.
Grandson said on the way home..after I had called him a good guy and he said he was not a guy and was a boy..and I explained guy was just another word for boy....he said he knew what he wanted for Christmas. He wanted to me a ‘normal guy’ then changed that to not wanting to be normal but a ‘different guy’. I said that sounded like a great idea to me..a guy…but not like every other guy. It is so cool to have a wise and thoughtful grandson who is still such a boy too!