waiting for a sign from you in Random Thoughts

not really, though.

i stayed home today from work, took a personal day. Ian and i were jokingly calling it my “leisurely naughty” day.

Date day tomorrow. 2:45 tomorrow we are meeting downtown portland to see Arrival. I told Ian i would wear my walking shoes so we can explore some alleyways and graffiti afterwards.

le sigh

Last night i spent a good two hours at a fantastic Portland restaurant, Langbaan. Afterwards i turned Lyft on and picked up a trio of drunk by sweet college kids in their 20’s. I really enjoyed their company.

Oh my. Then i got home after midnight to find that one of them had quietly thrown up in the corner of my car.

So, there i was, googling “how to clean up fresh vomit from a car” and taking care of business in my driveway from 12 to 1 am.

Luckily Lyft is very good about taking care of their drivers. I sent an email with pictures and they are going to get a monetary reimbursement from the person. I will use it to get my interior detailed. I think i did an ok job, it didnt smell like vomit this morning when i went to the gym and grocery store.

I am in a minimal amount of clothing, under a blanket, listening to Mazzy Star. Its my first leisurely part of the day thus far (the naughty part has been taken care of).

Sexual TMI kind of explicit personal information contained

I need to get over the embarrassment of having multiple lovers. Part of my new embrace of being Sex Positive is going to include that. Internally, ive never been concerned about it. But, for some reason, writing it here makes me hesitate a bit.

I have a new lover. He came over mid day today. We met at the massage a tois event. Our chemistry was intense. After the massages were over and things were cleaned up, he and i picked a massage table and spent some quality time with his fingers and mouth between my legs, my kundalini energy causing my body to move in beautiful ways uncontrollably. I must have been a sight!

Last weekend i hosted a wine social and Stuart was there. We would catch one another’s eyes from across the room and it was like a heavy line of desire. We would chat with another person(s) and i would brush against him. We would look at one another. Palpable desire intensity, scale factor 10! When i left, i immediately texted him,

”Let’s“

I invited him over for scones and coffee.

So, here we were today. Me making scones, his hands on my curves, making funny jokes (he is really funny, a sketch comedian who hosts his own podcast). mouths, tongues, fingers, my body almost uncontrollable shuddering from desire.

And, comfort. The ease and comfort and acceptance.

Just beautiful. Thank you Stuart.

*TMI over

Ok. I have multiple lovers. I am polyamorous. I am proud of it and need to get over the shame that i feel. That shame is a social construct anyways.