I'm still feeling pretty good, except for the fact that I'm definately not getting enough sleep. I mean, I'm getting as much as I usually do, it just hasn't seemed to be working. I was having a hard time remaining concious during the first part of today. Dave was really tired too, so for a while in the morning I stood in a circle with him and Julian and none of us talked. It was kind of awkward, but I couldn't do anything about it because my brain wasn't functioning. Eventually Dave thought of something to say. I think he told us that he fell asleep ON his microscope in bio yesterday. (Interesting, huh? When I asked "did it hurt?" he said "I dunno. I was asleep.")
Anyway, yesterday I had another psych appointment. As soon as I got there, I basically said "Where is this going?" and at the end of the session we basically came to the conclusion of, "nowhere." She agrees with me that the probability is overwhelming that my problem is a biological one, and that if I don't want to take drugs, that's it and I should just deal with it on my own. Apparantly I already have pretty good "coping mechanisms," so the only advice she could give me was to get my thyroid checked and excersize more. This resolution is more satisfying than you might think. The depression has definately subsided for now, so I figure I don't have to worry about it until the next time it comes on anyway. And, quite frankly, I'm glad I don't have to go there anymore.
On a different note entirely, yesterday Eric got dismissed to go prom shopping. This came as a shock to most of us.
"You're going to the prom? With who?"
"Lydia."
"Lydia? How'd you pull that one off?" (Not only is Lydia a senior and an awesome person, she's also this tall, absolutely gorgeous black girl.)
"Well, she didn't have a date, so I asked her and she was like, 'okay.'"
"Wow."
Eric, Lydia and Liz have also developed a sort of social version of the colorguard game. (To find this funny, you must first understand what the colorguard game is. This past year, the colorguard assigned everyone in the band a different number of points and tried to hit us with their flags. The drum major had the highest point value, since she's up on a platform, followed by Eric because he had a broken arm. After that, point value generally decreased with instrument size.) They've assigned couples going to the prom point values and trying to get them to fight. I believe Valerie and RJ have the highest point value because they're both really quiet. ("Can you imagine them fighting with ANYONE, let alone EACH OTHER?" said Liz as we were discussing this in the hallway.) Next highest is Rob and Alice, the drum major, just because they think that would be funny. See? Basically the same concept as the colorguard game.
It has also occoured to me that Adam is probably going to the prom with the blond. If I really think about it, it bothers me, but most of the time I don't care enough to think about it.
After school today I had my trumpet lesson. I got to hang out for a while and talk to Valerie, and the actual lesson went really well. At one point after I played something, Mr. Thomas just looked at me and said, "Yeah. Aidan, people don't DO that after playing the trumpet for two weeks. It cannot be done." Which made me extremely happy because it sounded like he was genuinely impressed.
And he wants me to play for marching band. I asked if he had any music for me, and he said, "Well, in a couple of weeks I'll have next year's opener for you."
I didn't quite know how to respond. Then I said, "Yeah, the thing about that is, I think I'd only switch if Valerie decided to switch to trombone. I mean, then Bonnie could switch to picollo and people would actually hear her. That would work, right? But otherwise... I mean I don't want the section to be SMALL or BAD..." The real issue here is that I've always wanted to be section leader, and if I switched, that wouldn't happen. I probably wouldn't get assistant drum major either.
"Well, my view has always been that in a small band, if someone's got brass chops, they should be playing brass. But I mean, play what you want."
I ended up telling him about the section leader thing. He said that there's more than one way to be a leader in the band.
When I was talking to Lydia at lunch today after Eric and Liz had left, she gave me a look and said, "Are you dating Dave?"
"Pf. No," I said quickly.
"Oh okay. I just see you together all the time, and I don't see you with Adam anymore..."
"Yeah I know. He's like my best friend, but that's it. And Adam and I broke up."
"Oh ok." She sounded surprised. "Well if you guys are just friends... whatever..." she kind of trailed off.
Wierd. I guess she doesn't know about the blond. At first I thought, "Maybe they aren't really going out." But then I thought "Why else would people let her hang out in the band room? I've never seen her before, and you can't just wander in there. They must be."
And I guess I'm doing another flute quartet with Lydia, Bonnie and Ivy. God, I wish they would use Valerie. Four flutes at once hurts my ears.
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