I AM NOT COPING WELL in HUBBY

I AM HARDLY COPING AT ALL. EVEN AFTER TWO DAYS SHOPPING AND RELAXING AND NOT VISITING MY HUBBY I AM STILL FALLING APART. MY DAUGHTER HAS BEEN GREAT. SHE GAVE ME TWO DAYS OFF AND WANTS ME TO TAKE OFF TOMORROW TOO. SHE IS GOING BACK TO TORONTO ON SATURDAY. I DON’T KNOW WHAT I WILL DO. I FOUND GOING BACK TODAY VERY DIFFICULT. I DON’T KNOW IF HE REALIZED I WAS GONE. I DON’T KNOW WHAT HE IS THINKING OR WHAT HE KNOWS. HE DID EAT SOME SUPPER. HE HAD SOME VISITORS SO I HAD A NAP. HOWEVER I DON’T KNOW HOW TO COPE. TOMORROW I INVITED MY KIDS FOR SUPPER. NOW I AM THINKING OF CANCELLING IT. I DON’T THINK I CAN DO IT. TOMORROW THE SOCIAL WORKER MIGHT BE AT THE HOSPITAL. I WILL TRY TO TALK TO HER. I DON’T KNOW WHAT SHE CAN TELL ME. WE HAVE CAREGIVERS BUT IS COSTING US A FORTUNE. TOMORROW I MIGHT TRY TO SEE IF WE CAN FIND SOMONE CHEAP RIGHT NOW WE ARE GOING THROUGH AN AGENCY. IT IS COMFORTING TO KNOW THAT SOMEONE IS THERE WHEN WE’RE NOT. I GUESS I’LL MAKE SOME DECISIONS IN THE MORNING.