Movies... in Fresh Start...

Sometimes I wish my love life could be like in a movie, but it never is.

Where’s my Noah? Where’s my happy ending? I don’t think I have one.

I’ve made efforts. HS guy just basically wants nothing to do with me so I stopped messaging him. He couldn’t be bothered to look at my messages so why should I bother. Another guy that I know we have talked about hanging out but it hasn’t happened yet. I guess we’ll see but I doubt it. There’s a guy from POF that I’ve been talking to but every time we talk about meeting something always comes up. First he had to work then he came down sick. So I’m pretty much just done with that. Of course the only guy who has expressed any interest in hanging out with me is the one guy from POF that I met but was totally not interested in after meeting.

All my friends work 2nd shift or weekends or both. I say all my friends but in reality it’s just 2 people. My sister is only interested if she wants something. And I’m pretty sure every other guy I know is in a relationship.

My house is a total wreck and I’m finding it increasingly difficult to get out of bed. And my cat started sneezing today so he might have a cold. Guess I’m going to have to give him some meds or something.

Like the state of my house is to the point that I don’t even know where to start I’m so overwhelmed.

I really just want to lay here and listen to sad music. And fantasize about someone who isn’t and probably never will be mine. I’m pathetic.