You guys. I’m very, very confused. Maybe I’m just not used to a normal date anymore?
Everything happened normally last night, I guess. He picked me up (brought fall flowers!), took me to a Mexican place for dinner…was an odd choice for all the cool places to have dinner close by (obscure Mexican place, not well known for being particularly hip, new, or even the food quality) - but it was fine! Just thought it seemed like the guy doesn’t go out much - which is not a big deal. In fact, it’s great, I’m just surprised, is all. Such a handsome, man-about-town-looking fella.
But what do I know?
Conversation was decent - he explained a bit more about what he does, though I still don’t quite understand. Environmental engineering. I guess what he does is makes clean-ups look good? I don’t know! Why don’t I feel like I have a clearer picture? He works on some government projects and private projects for BIG corporations. He’s a smart, smart guy and I felt like it was going over my head.
He doesn’t joke a lot. I told him he seemed serious. He was surprised by that. But get this, he’s a Capricorn man, so a lot of that smart and serious makes a lot of sense. My dad is a Capricorn and they are a lot alike (smart talker, serious with a witty sense of humor). He and my dad even have the same birthday!
He complemented me a lot again - telling me I’m beautiful, etc. I confessed once again that I’m self-conscious about our age difference. Especially since he has a baby face and can pass for a guy in his 20s or early 30s. He said it doesn’t bother him. I should just suck it up and trust that what he’s saying is true, right?
When dinner was over I suggested we walk down the street to this cool little beer joint. The weather was great, and we were actually drinking on this date (not to excess, but remember we met for coffee on our first date). So we walked down the semi-cobblestoned sidewalk and I held onto him because I was wearing some of my tallest shoes - I love that I can wear my tallest shoes and he still towers over me!
Sat outside in the lovely fall coolness and talked more. This time, it was about relationships. He’s been divorced 8 years, so I asked him what’s happened since then. He’s had a couple of relationships, each lasting about a year, but clearly nothing that led to marriage…one was certifiably crazy and the other moved away for a job or something. Still not getting a sense of what he may be like in a relationship.
I know it’s only our second meeting and we have a ton to discuss, and I’m being super-duper cautious. I told him about SexyPants (he asked).
And look, he’s already asked me out for our third date. He wants me to come over so he can cook for me! I should be over the moon about it…and I AM! But I feel like I should be prepared with a lot more of a what-do-you-want-out-of-this type questions.
What I can tell is that he wants to fuck. I’ll tell you why.
After the beer thing, he asked if he could see the rooftop patio of my place. I’d talked a lot about the building and how beautiful it is. He did NOT invite himself over to my place (he even said he didn’t want to see my apartment - good boy!), but he was curious about the building.
So he drove us back to my place and we took the elevator to the top floor and then into the stairwell to get to the roof…and we saw that there were people on the roof, so we hung back in the stairwell a bit…and the make-out began.
People. The way this Tree kisses is beyond. It practically knocked me off my feet. It’s slow and sexy and delicious. And sexual. Like…it was like we were making love with our lips and I don’t know that I’ve ever experienced anything like this.
We finally made our way to the roof (everyone else had left), and the kissing and light touching did not stop for about 45 minutes. It got deeper and heavier and I was melting. I mean…the dude is INSANELY sensual. If nothing else, I’m pretty sure I want to get it on with him. Soon.
But I’m so conflicted. Because I will fall for him if we do the deed. I know I will. And I wanna do it so badly after we kissed each others’ faces off last night. I don’t even know if I can explain how steamy and hot last night was. I think this guy may be worth just the experience of sex even if nothing comes out of it.
Bottom line: I don’t know where this is going from a relationship standpoint, but if I don’t find out what it’s like to have sex with this giant of a man, I may regret it for the rest of my life!!!
Help.
xo,
GS
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