I’m tipsy, so bear with me and my typos.
I needed to start deciding about people whom use and hurt me. I am too forgiving and quite frankly, a door mat. So a few months ago when my neighbor abused my convenience one too many times, I decided. That’s it.
When I asked a ‘friend’ to help me get some help… and she said I wasn’t struggling enough (instead of offering to help? Wtf? I end up locking myself in a room and wrist banging for I don’t know how long) I told her to get fucked, and I decided.
Decided not to tolerate this shit anymore.
Yesterday I decided before I asked. I asked my brother to apologise for calling me specifically to say I am a horrible human being. Decided that he had a chance to let our kids know one another. But he is ignoring me. I think this is supposed to be retribution? Thing is, I don’t care. So I am certain he is spending more energy on ignoring me to make a point than I am supposed to be agonizing over being ignored.
Anyway. Josh. You should know I decided long ago. I’m here. I gave my most vulnerable parts up to this family because they begged to have it all. Now they do. And I have none of you, nor them. And I was lynch mobbed for exposing my most vulnerable parts.
So… I’m stopping now. I’m here if you want to come to us one day.
I decided.
-SP
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