One of my best friends found out she was pregnant the other day. She was on birth control and avidly trying to avoid having a second child. I have no idea why it happens so easily for some people yet for others its nearly impossible. She is about 7 weeks along and is still in shock at this point. I completely understand the feeling. Even though Callum was planned it was still a shock realizing we were about to go from one child to two. I am genuinely happy for her. She is an excellent mother and her daughter is her whole world, I know this second child will be loved just as much. I just wish I had pregnancy news to share as well. I want to be pregnant too!
I do have a midwife appointment next week. It will be nearly 6 months since Callum was born. The midwife told me in August that we needed to wait 6 months before getting on fertility treatments, at that time it seemed so long to way. Seemed like an eternity away and I was really positive that I would surely be pregnant long before that 6 month mark. Honestly, I had hopes that it would happen our first cycle. I thought I would be due around the same time I was due with Callum and I could just re-do everything. November came and went, and no BFP… so did December. And now it is January, a new year, and still no sign of pregnancy. I know it is too early to test this cycle, but really my hopes are low. I have been disappointed so much, I don't even have hope that I will see a positive pregnancy test again in my life… definitely not without fertility treatment. I know my cycles and I know I ovulate and I know I time things right… I just don't know why it isn't happening for us. I take all the right supplements and eat right and avoid almost everything I should (I do love my coffee, but only one per day). I do EVERYTHING right. I did everything right during my pregnancy. I couldn't think of one single thing I would have changed, I was healthy, gained the right amount of weight, ate only organic non-processed foods. I was so very careful, so adamant to do everything "right" with that pregnancy because I felt I did something wrong with Beau's since he came 9 weeks early. It frustrates me so much that some women can just breeze through conception and pregnancy without a second thought. No lifestyle changes, no taking temperatures every morning, no opk's, no obsessing over faint evap lines on pregnancy tests taken way too early…. I am not upset with them - I am upset with me. My body has failed me, so many times it has let me down.
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