DEAR CHILDREN in HUBBY

YOU DON’T KNOW WHAT I AM GOING THROUGH. I MIGHT NOT KNOW OR UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU ARE GOING THROUGH EITHER. I AM AN OLD LADY. MAYBE I AM NOT OLD IN YEARS- ONLY 74 BUT I FEEL LIKE 90. I AM NOT STRONG. I ALWAYS THOUGH I WAS BUT I’M NOT. I;M HAOPY I CAN VISIT DAD AND KEEP HIM COM[ANY FOR A FEW HOURS EVERYDAY. TAKE HIM OUT TO A RESTAURANT. THAT’S UP TO YOU. HE CAN’T MOVE. HOW WILL WE TAKE HIM. IF YOU ARE STRONG AND CAN FIGURE IT OUT GO AHEAD. I AM HAVING ENOUGH TROUBLE JUST COPING EVERYDAY. I TRY TO ENTERTAIN HIM AND KEEP HIM COMFORTABLE WE ARE PAYING ALOT FOR CAREGIVERS. IT’S OK. BUT BEYOND WHAT I’M DOING I DON’T THINK I CAN TAKLE HIM OUT. WHY DON’T YOU ASK TO TAKE ME OUT. I HAVE BEEN EATING MEALS ALONE FOR MONTHS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I SHOULD TELL YOU THAT MY FEET ARE BARD. I HAVE NEUROPATHY AND IT’S ALL I CAN DO TO GET THROUGH THE DAY. I AM TRYING TO LOOK AFTER OUR FINANCES. MAYBE I SHOULD LET ONE OF YOU DO IT. AT THIS POINT I DON’T CARE. I WOULD LOVE TO GO INTO A SENIOR RESIDENCE AND MAYBE AFTER DAD DIES I WILL. I DON’T NNEDD OR WANT THIS BIG CONDO. I DON’T NEED OR WANT ALL THE JUNK AROUND. I AM SO ALONE. I AM SO FED UP. I AM SO UPSET WITH THE TWO OF YOU WHO ARE ONLY THINKING ABOUT YOURSELVES. SURE I KNOW YOU HAVE YOUR OWN PROBL;EMS. WHAT CAN I SAY. JUST DON’T EXPECT ANY MORE THAN I AM DOING I CAN’T AND TO TELL THE TRUTH I DON’T WNAT TO.
DAD I SGETTING EXCELLENT CARE. AS I ALWAYS SAY THE CAREGIVER HETS NOTHING. I GUESS I SHOULD GET MORE HELP. I AM SO ALONE. I AM SO FED UP. I AM SO LONELY. SOMETIMES I JUST WANT TO GUVE UP. I CAN’T SEE A FUTURE. I CAN’T SEE ANYTHING I REALLY WQNAT TO DO. ALL I WANT IS TO GET TAKEN CARE OF. I NEVER THOUGHT I WOUL DBE LIKE THIS BUT I AM .