So it’s been, what?! 11 months.. And i must say its been the best but hardest 11 months ever.. I guess it’s a good job I have got amazing support.. Well, when they all agree 😏 Mums not the most helpful, not helpful at all really! I understand why, his lack of respect n all that.. but wow, how selfish is she at times!? A lot like him Unfortunately!
Chris and Kerry mind, have been amazing! I really thought I was going to lose their friendship with all this jazz going on.. I really must thank them more!
You know, it makes me kind of sad that I thought of the last 6 years as normal.. The lack of money, voice, the arguing, the dressing.. Though I know the dominance stuff is far from normal, yet i still couldn’t stand up to him and make him take no for an answer! how did he do it, how did he have so much control over me that I agreed to do stuff that I never wanted to do.. That repulsed me, upset me.. Who the fuck does he think he is! (Be good if I realised this at the time, Ayy). I guess it was normal, for our ‘relationship’, but my god I’m so glad I’m out of that now!
I guess I have to thank him in a way.. If he hadn’t of gambled the rent, for the second fucking time 😳, I would still be there, I really don’t think I would of had the strength to kick his arse out, without something to back it up.. rather, I thank my boys, for giving me that strength.. No dad should be putting their children in that position! Who am i kidding, he’s never been a very successful dad!
I actually can’t believe that I let him behave like that too! It’s only now that I realise just how low I was and how much I lacked.. self confidence, purpose.. All because of him n his stupid selfish self! Well guess what shit face! You can’t control me anymore, you can’t ruin my life or my confidence! I’m a better person than you’ll ever be and you know what, that’s down to me, not you, whatever you think you are, you are not a very nice person! (Ahh, that’s better!)
Ayy, have you seen this bearded geek Iv managed to get myself!? Isn’t he just gorgeous! That smile thou! 😍 I tell you what I dont know where I’d be without him right now! And I don’t know how he does it, how he’s still sticking around..
Well come on, it can’t be easy to come into a relationship with 2 children, a pending divorce (Yayy) and a useless ex that needs to be a dad! It’s official.. He’s my best friend and soul mate! (I know, I’m cute 😉) just gotta make sure I don’t screw this one up too!
I’m pretty sure he’s 80% of the reason why I’m feeling so good about myself! He thinks I’m beautiful! Iv never been ‘beautiful’, ever! And his family are, well, just top, top people and so friggin clever! His mum, well she’s an amazing lady 👌🏼 ! So supportive, and kind.. even to me and my boys! Not many people are so welcoming! I must get her something! 🤔
Right Iv gotta go now.. School time shortly.. And guess what?! yes, it’s raining! 🙄 Typical.. Anyway, il be back, it kinda feels good, certainly given my head a wobble! ☺️
Loading comments...