when i climb the stairs and turn the key. please be there...........still in love w/ me. [as it were. i hope]. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.

so in the fall. i’m going to talk to evan about all this. i’ve already typed up a letter for him [i mean he at least deserves that much].

i just hope, that once and when all this is done, that he’ll still be there for me. or even that he’ll still be there.here, physically. but i really don’t know.

and if he isn’t? well i..............i’d rather not think about it although i know and acknowledge that it’s a possibility. i’d rather leave him before he has a chance to leave me.