I can’t sleep at night. I can’t do any of this. I can’t believe I allowed myself to be put in such a vulnerable place in life. I have no skills. No job for the past five years. Two kids to take care of. College debt from a useless degree. My family abandons me and guilt trips me. Jacob reaches deep into my chest and rips me to shreds constantly. He accuses me of gaslighting him but he silences me when I defend myself. I just loathe myself. I want to disappear. I don’t want any of this to be happening.
I have to pull myself together because I promised my kids to take them to the zoo today.
I guess I will cry again and get over it.
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