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Talents and Direction in Things that Weigh my Heart

Revised: 05/03/2016 2:29 p.m.

  • May 3, 2016, 7 a.m.
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So growing up I have always gone to church with my family and always “believed” in God, I have never not believed in Him. Some people think that this can not be true but for me it is. However, I did have an “ah-ha moment.”
When I was between five and seven years old, I don’t remember exactly, my family and I went to Dollywood, it’s a theme park. I had my eye on this miniature umbrella, remember I’m pretty small, so it was just my size, and it had cats on it. Don’t judge my six(ish) year old self! I wanted to be a big girl and not hold my mom’s hand and then I was too busy looking at the umbrella that I wanted, and as far as I knew I couldn’t have it. Since, I was off in fantasy land staring at my umbrella I must have started walking slower than the rest of my family and when I looked up they were no where in sight! I immediately freaked out and froze, what I saw ahead of me was two paths, one skinny one to the left and one much wider to the right. I thought to myself it was more likely they went to the right because it was bigger. As soon as I took that first step toward the path to the right I heard a voice in my head that said, “Left!” It was a deep man voice and at the time I thought it was God (as I got older my aunt suggested it was my guardian angel.) So of course I listened and went down the smaller path, as soon as I rounded a corner my family was there and I heard my mother getting worried looking for me. The first thing I did was run to her crying and didn’t let go of her hand the rest of the time.
Since I received this absolutely clear direction when I was so young I have always thought that God would direct major decision in my life this way. That is not the case, actually I have not heard this man’s voice since then. So as I got older and had to make bigger decisions, like what kind of job to have or where to go to college, I am always curious to know if they are the right decisions since I don’t have that voice to correct me. I first went to school to be a teacher and decided I shouldn’t be responsible for that many kids at once. Then I changed to psychology and realized I would have to go to grad school to do anything with that degree. So I changed to business and figured out it was too difficult for me pretty quickly. Now I am about to finish school, a hundred years later, with an art degree and a psychology minor and business minor. People have told me that as long as you have a degree you should be good, people very rarely work in the field that they pursued a degree in.
God has given me talents that some people think is extraordinary but I see as natural. I love to paint, draw, and create. I am taking jewelry classes and metal working. When I go to stores instead of buying things to decorate my house I find things that I want to make. As long as I am making things with these hands of mine I’ll be happy.
I’m not sure where life will take me and I’m not sure if I still need to be corrected. I have learned to follow my dreams and do what I love and God will use it to glorify Him, and that’s all I could ask for.


Last updated May 03, 2016


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