I have about 15 minutes to write a quickie. I’m at work and we’re starting a strategy session in half an hour.
Don’t really have a whole lot to say, other than I feel a little bit better today than I have over the last few days regarding, well, a lot of things.
First, the love life (because it’s top of mind). I don’t know. I spent a little bit of time reading over old entries here on PB and it’s clear that as long as I’ve known the Bulldog, it’s been a bit of a torturous time. I’ve liked him since the day I met him, but he’s been difficult for me the whole damn time.
Why do I spend so much energy on things that frustrate the hell out of me? I wish I knew so that I could avoid years (yes, YEARS) of frustration and questioning things. These things are supposed to come easier…not all the way simple, mind you, but easier than I have made them.
I’ve got to stop fighting with myself. Sure, there are things worth fighting for, but I’ve got to learn which things are worth the pain and which things are not.
Perhaps visualization?
I was struggling with not being able to lose weight and get back into shape at the beginning of the year - up until recently. And then something inside my brain just shifted one day a week or so ago, and I could see myself looking and feeling better and I could visualize how I want to look and all of a sudden in the past several days, I’ve noticed very small changes. First, in the scale…it’s ever so slightly inching it’s way down. Second, in my body. I can feel my clothes fitting differently. I work out in front of a mirror and though I don’t love the way things look at the moment, I can see tiny, tiny changes and adjustments moving me ever so slightly closer to the way I want things to be.
So how can I use that with other things? Work, for example. I know what I want to do, and I can kind of see it. There are a couple of ways I’d like to tackle the job situation. One, I’ve started focusing on the things that I do well. Coincidentally, these are the things that I like to do best. Now, I know that there are other things that have to be done, things I don’t really like to do…but if I put all of my BEST efforts into visualizing a job really well done on the things that I really like doing and do well, then the focus of my job starts to lean that way.
It is also helping me think about moving forward and onward with my career somewhere else. These “good things” should go into my portfolio to move me closer to the job that I really want.
I have a ways to go, but this is a start in some of my shifting feelings as of late.
Getting rid of the clutter, like in the Marie Kondo book, is helping me clear out the shit that’s been piling up in my life.
I can’t see it fully, but I think if I start using visualization to move me into the direction I want to see myself going, it might just help me with a lot of things.
Better go, all-morning strategy session in 10 minutes.
Love YOU!
GS
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