Kind of a downer of a weekend. The weather was great, and I did get outside a bit, but I wanted to continue the work on my clutter situation, and I barely made a dent.
I really blew it on Friday. After I wrote my last entry, I went to lunch with my co-worker Ryan and some other peeps on his team. He was drinking margaritas and I knew there was NO WAY I could go back to work with tequila in my system, so I drank wine. Two glasses of wine to be exact, and I should have known with my mental state that I would be ruined by that.
Fought my way through the rest of the day and went home and simply crashed. I took the dog out to pee at maybe 7PM and we were asleep after that. A little tossing and turning around 11PM and 2AM, but didn’t get up until like 8, so…lots of sleeping.
Saturday morning I took the dog to the farmer’s market, which was what I did the Saturday before with the Bulldog, and it made me a little sad. I’ve decided that going to the market before say, 11AM is a little bit too early for this place because we (the dog and I) had the whole venue to ourselves at 9! The sun was shining, so we parked ourselves on a bench in the sunshine and everyone who walked by said hello. This is definitely going to be my spot of choice on Saturday late mornings. Or maybe Sundays. I like the vibe and everyone is happy.
Home and started to rummage around through my paperwork. I knew I wanted to make a big dent in the clutter, but needed some more permanent-like storage cubes for under the consoles that I have in my hallway. I ordered some on Amazon and noticed that with Prime, I could get them same day (on a Saturday, no less!). Bingo.
Futzed around for hours until it was time to walk with [Athena], but she was feeling bad, so I took the dog on a long, long walk until it got dark….dark….the darkness settled in.
I had a full-blown case of the blues.
I’ve been thinking about this storytelling show and I knew I wanted to write my entry for that, so instead of doing more cleaning (even though the storage cubes showed up as expected), I sat at my computer to write and edit. Not easy! I had started with a morphing of a few OD entries but just pasting the stories together made my entry about 4 times too long (needed to be 1200 to 1500 words) and thus began an editing process that took me the rest of the evening and most of Sunday morning! I had no idea it would take me so long to do that – probably much longer than just tapping out a work from memory, but even though the deadline isn’t for another week and a half, I submitted the story. So there, it’s submitted. No idea if I’ll get picked. After all, there are only seven spots, but this is something that I would LOVE to do as it would really get my out of my comfort zone and give me something different to look forward to.
Saturday late night I went to bed with my ipad and clicked around Netflix for a while and just generally lumped around. Tossed and turned and whimpered. What a baby I was over the weekend.
And Sunday was super bluesy. Lord help me, I’m an absolute mess.
The only things that saved me all weekend were the walks.
After the afternoon walk, I decided to go to the big fancy-pants grocery store and that was a massive mistake. It was so fucking crowded with everyone and their carts…I mean, more than just obnoxiously crowded, like angry crowded. Everyone was bitchy and that made me bitchy. At one point, a man ran over my heel a little bit with his cart. He apologized, but I just gave him the side eye like a superbitch. I’m not proud. But I didn’t get what I came there for and just had to finally get the fuck out of there (after spilling a coffee sample on the floor).
Sunday night, no better. In fact, worse. I opened a bottle of prosecco and smoked cigs out my window and was a wreck.
So when I woke up this morning, I was like FUCK. THIS. I’m sick and tired of the moping around. And even though I was tired from all of the worry and depression, I decided that it’s LEAP DAY, motherfuckers. I’m going to make the best of this extra day we have.
I haven’t really done a whole lot about it, but I did work out extra, extra hard this morning and that made me feel excellent. And I’ve gotten quite organized and kicked off things at work today. There’s still a lot to be done and I don’t feel 100% yet, but it’s much better than the mopey dope of the weekend.
And the day’s not over. There’s hope for this Leap Day yet. Starting now…
XO,
GS
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