Time travelling in Rubysmom328

Someone told me recently that there is a chemical in your body that allows you to perceive time. As we age we have less of that chemical so it seems like the days fly by faster. As a kid the years seem to last forever but as an adult things move at a light speed pace. I wish the opposite were true. I have a daughter. She was born March 28, 2014 at 12:12 pm. I want to slow down time and spend more of it watching her grow. She learned the word please the other day and melted my heart. I feel like every part of who I am and everything that I’ve been through in my life has led me to this long awaited point of motherhood. I like science fiction. The idea of time traveling is thrilling. Going back into the past to see historic events take place or maybe to alter something in the past that you would like to change by warning your younger self. However, how different would I be if I had never had my heart broken? Where would I be in life if I had pursued different things in school? Are we the sum of our experiences or would we still be who we are but just in different circumstances?
Right now I’m typing on my laptop listening to the small sounds of a toddler happily dreaming next to me. We never thought we would be blessed with a child. I was 33 and my husband was 39 when we found out we were going to have a baby girl. A little later in life than most people but they say babies come when they are meant to. My mother in law said God had to take his time making the right one for us. I believe that. Maybe because we waited so long for a child that we treasure her more but I truly believe she is perfect for us. My only regret is that we couldn’t have had more children sooner. If I had a time machine I would go tell my younger self to try sooner. To have herself checked out for PCOS at 23 and not 27. That at 27 you would spend 6 more years trying to have children. It’s so much more fulfilling to have a child and that your husband is going to be a better father than you ever thought possible. And to definitely start taking care of your health. One scare that I never thought I would go through is the thought of my daughter having to live without me. Also that the mothering instinct is so strong that it would be better to fill the house with babies instead of the many dogs over the years.
It is what it is though. I am who I am. Would anything change though with time traveling? My ovaries wouldn’t be any more willing to cooperate would they? I might still be at several jobs but I wouldn’t have been there to help save lives as a respiratory therapist. Who knows. The only thing that I know is that time is a precious commodity in short supply to those who desperately need it. Right now I hear a sweet sigh of slumber. I run my fingers through her hair and kiss her forehead. She stirs for a moment, smiles in her sleep and I think if only this moment could last a little longer.